Wilderness Road

by Cigarettes and Milk

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I ate a cactus and this was the result,

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released April 7, 2014

Nathan Przekop - Vocals, Guitar, Banjo
Hailey Remillard - Vocals

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Cigarettes and Milk Portland, Oregon

I'm too poor for decent quality. Everyone says my moniker is gross. I like lo-fidelity. I drink too much. All proceeds go toward rent to keep me off the streets.

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Track Name: The Reddest Lights
I'm only young and I'm restless
I sat in the park and gazed and the reddest lights
Tower before me
Red as the pain that settles in my heart

I'm only young and I'm restless
I sat in your arms and gazed at the reddest lights
Dwindle before me
Red as the charms that were hanging from your neck

I don't wanna die just yet
Not with everything that I need to see
I'll always love you
But there's more to life than me

I don't wanna go just yet
Not with everything that I'll leave behind
I'll always love you
But If I stay, surely I'll go blind

I'm only young and I'm restless
I sat in the park and gazed at the reddest lights
Settle before me
Red as the thoughts that crossed my mind

I don't wanna die just yet
Not with everything that I need to see
I'll always love you
But there's more to life than me

I don't wanna go just yet
Not with everything that I'll leave behind
I'll always love you
But If I stay, surely I'll go blind
Track Name: Ghost
I witnessed the sun fall apart for the moon
And I cried, the fireflies lit the night, and the fairies had moved
I don't think I've ever felt remotely as close to this
And I don't think I'll ever be missed

I sat in a hospital bed as my heart had begun to fail
Although it was only my anxiety calling, I prayed that I would live
Then again, sometimes I hate everyone and also myself
I've accomplished nothing, not proud of becoming, a slave to the feeling of death

And why, why the hell am I afraid, my thoughts are my fears
Sometimes being out with my friends doesn't matter cause nothing is clear
My lungs feel like they don't even work and I can't tell if I have a pulse
I want to say goodbye, but I don't want to say it as a ghost

I witnessed those in love like a movie scene in slow motion
All the happiest parts strung together like a scrapbook, as if nothing bad had happened
And it makes me wonder if I've been alive, or capable enough to survive
I'm trying so hard just to smile, but I what I really need is someone to know that I'm lying

Why, why the hell am I afraid, my thoughts are my fears
Sometimes being out with my friends doesn't matter cause nothing is clear
My lungs feel like they don't even work and I can't tell if I have a pulse
I want to say goodbye, but I don't want to say it as a ghost

I witnessed the sun fall apart for the moon
And I cried, the fireflies lit the night, and the fairies had moved
Track Name: In The Wake
I'm not alive in the longrun
Buried my dog in the boneyard
Wrung my scarf, dry in the snowy haze
In all this bliss I left a rose

I'm leaving all my trouble in wooden doors
I hope heaven looks a little bit like earth
I'd kiss a rainbow, not much to say no
Think I'm okay now, I'm in the wake

I stacked the rocks like a mountain
Gave her a piece of my soul
I couldn't help but let the tears undress for
She was the thing that I loved most

I'm leaving all my trouble in wooden doors
I hope heaven looks a little bit like earth
I'd kiss a rainbow, not much to say no
Think I'm okay now, I'm in the wake

I'm leaving all my trouble in wooden doors
I hope heaven looks a little bit like earth
I'd kiss a rainbow, not much to say no
Think I'm okay now, I'm in the wake
Track Name: Never Leave You
The smell of her dress
Is what taught me best
The cracks of her smile
Will stay for awhile
You shouldn't be here

Won't you hold'a my hand
And we'll remember the days
That were left in a haze
And now that I can see
I'll never leave you

Your cigarettes
Fill my lungs with lead
Your taunts and your breasts
Are the only lies I loved
The trench which you spoke
Closed when I awoke
The sheets where you sleep
Have forsaken your soul
I shouldn't be here

Won't you hold'a my hand
And we'll remember the days
That were left in a haze
And now that I can see
I'll never leave you

Ropes en-strangle my mind
I know I shouldn't be blind
Your legs'a twitch and tweak
I'll never leave you
Track Name: One Day
I'm empty, it's heavy, it's shorter, I'm colder
You hold him, you kiss him, you know that I want this
And I don't get when you say, that we were meant to be
Or when you leaned against me, and held my, my hand

I have this way of feeling down when you're gone
The sheets remind me of where we belong
My fingers tremble when the thought starts creeping in
My whispers reach your ear with hope that we could sin
One day...

I'm bloated, it's diseased, I'm sane when, you're with me
I stop by, and say grace, I smile, in his place
And I don't like when he comes and tries to take me
Cause you were leaned against me, and held my, my hand.

I have this way of feeling down when you're gone
The sheets remind me of where we belong
My fingers tremble when the thought starts creeping in
My whispers reach your ear with hope that we could sin
One day...
Track Name: Bubblegum Hotel
The wind is cold and it's raining outside
I'm feeling lonely but yet I'm alive it's old
Stagnant and stale it's old

The mawkish man is selling frozen berries
A tombly stand where hundreds buried their love
Frore to the touch like iron and ire and bullet and blood

I blow up inside of you like a bubblegum hotel
The legacy of Socrates taught me all to well
Too never hold better to whether or not I'm out in the goons
Sold like the rain seeping out from your shoes

Porous holes whistle out from hell
A bigot of God called it over and down down drowned
In chorus with violence and glue stuck to your noose

Quick writing with a feather and ink
Life is better when it's fake and oh so frail
A potpourri of whether buffet'd to the gluttons who read all these lies

I blow up inside of you like a bubblegum hotel
The legacy of Socrates taught me all to well
Too never hold better to whether or not I'm out in the goons
Sold like the rain seeping out from your shoes

You wanted me nothing, you wanted me dead
You'd stolen the pages I'd written and wrote in your lies instead
You wanted to give it but giving ain't giving when it comes to you

Took in the moment to seize it but really what good did it do
I broke down in rage misbehaved as I felt compelled to sell you out
The wind spoke in broken haiku's as I felt my word bringing me down

I blow up inside of you like a bubblegum hotel
The legacy of Socrates taught me all to well
Too never hold better to whether or not I'm out in the goons
Sold like the rain seeping out from your shoes
Track Name: Too Far Gone
I'm falling even faster
This shell envelopes all
Those brittle broken feelings-
I could never let you go

I'm shaking where I'm standing
Your love is too demanding
Shredding up my mind
Like origami swans

These days have gone on too long
I've been choked up in my own thoughts
The birds swarm in as I weep
Singing happy songs to comfort me

But they don't realize that
I'm just too far gone..

I wanted all those lies
I'd shaven all my time
I'd take nothing more
If it helps me to know, to know

If I'm, if I'm
That too far gone...

I spend all day inside me
And end up hating all
These walls and faces laughing at me
Cause they're beautiful

I hold you like a memory
As if I've seen the ending
Of my twisted, tormenting
Adolescent life

I can't find words to explain
I've sponged up all of this pain again
There's really nothing to confess
The birds have already ran out of breath

Cause they had realized
That I'm just too far gone..

I wanted all those lies
I'd shaven all my time
I'd take nothing more
If it helps me to know, to know

If I'm, if I'm
That too far gone...
Track Name: Black Sheep
Is there no one around who can see that I miss her
The fire brushes the dark with a dance and this girl is looking to kiss
They all push me to do it, I can't fathom where to start
Always wondered if my mother foresaw that I'd break my little heart

I won't know when to escape the emotions that pull me through
Not easy trying to forget when everyone is in love
I seem to be the only soul who lingers desperately
Father I need your approval, was I really the only black sheep

I moved in all alone
But I could escape my ghost
Her lips taste so stale
I know she'll never repair me
Track Name: Headed For Nowhere
Raindrops splash back
Against the foggy sideview mirror
Watching the car behind me
While the radio blares the weather

Smoked my last cigarette
But I can always get some more
I just feel like letting go
And I'm headed for nowhere

The constant loop
Of all the wonderful memories
Kills me inside
And I'm looking to get away

I see her favorite
Tunnel up ahead
She always liked the yellow lights
As they trailed on by and she said

"I'm not much
And sometimes I wanna die
But moments like this
I really feel alive"

Raindrops splash back
Against the foggy sideview mirror
Watching the car behind me
While the radio blares the weather

Smoked my last cigarette
But I can always get some more
I just feel like letting go
And I'm headed for nowhere
Track Name: Broken Strings
"I've got six dollars
And you've got a gun"
You said let's buy some bullets
Shoot things for fun
Well the old rusty shed
Where the turkeys roamed wild
Tipped in the rainstorm
We thought for awhile
I left the wine
In the cupboard to hide
That way our friends
Would know it was mine
We walked the trail
Stumbled on roots
The tree like a dragon
Withered and dried

Oh but things are bound to change
And everything will die
But the minutes that I spent with you
Were worth every dime

Oh where, where did you run
Did the thought of life scare you off
Was there ever a chance you'd stay here with me
Did things have to end to the sound of broken strings

Buried the hatchet
And listened to the dogs
Carried my knapsack
Into the woods
Started the fire
And saw all my friends
Knew that I missed you
As soon as it began
Sat by the water
With the moon hanging high
Beaming underneath
Like floodlights at the bottom

Oh and things had surely changed
And everything had died
But the minutes that I spent with you
Were still worth the while

Oh where, where did you run
Did the thought of life scare you off
Was there ever a chance you'd stay here with me
Did things have to end to the sound of broken strings
Track Name: Crooked Lungs
I always, sat by your grave as you slept
The streetlight in the snowy dark embrace I wept
When you died, I longed to hold you again
But I'm, no I'm not scared anymore

When I cried, I should have known in the end
This is the only place we'll ever see together again

Your crooked lungs they don't breathe anymore
Peonies were you favorite flower
When you died I longed to hold you
But I'm, no I'm not scared anymore

When I cried, I should have known in the end
This is the only place we'll ever see again
This is the only place we'll ever see together again

But I always, sat by your grave as you slept
The streetlight in the snowy dark embrace I wept
I wept...
Track Name: Obsession
Wake up
Sleepy eyes

There is nothing like it
I forgot this empty pocket
Longed to learn an education
Didn't make it to the station

Wherego
I don't know

Did you want my money
I've been living down the lovely
I faked it all need to waste it
Make me up-

And all I really see
Is what's coming for me
There's nothing to protect ya
No alternate dimension

Wherever I go
I'm never alone
All my progression
Dies with her obsession

The skies
They're endless

Broke the silence early
All the atoms scream the world
To make and leave a new connection
Strapped to life-

And all I really see
Is what's coming for me
There's nothing to protect ya
No alternate dimension

Wherever I go
I'm never alone
All my progression
Dies with her obsession

Now someday I'll find
What makes me alive
I'll never have to worry
My love will do it for me

And all I really see
Is what's coming for me
It's what I really need,
Please come for me...
Track Name: Nuclear Pastel
Sent us away for all those who bear and
She knew the scene, lament and prepare all my
Wits for a girl, not in it for truth but
Never could be defined

Out on the street where the walls would conform
From dust to the wind like our love it is gone
And I'm no longer afraid, why was I afraid
In the first place

Well they say that you're always on the edge
With the minutes that are done and she's filled her dress
In the only way, water could ever fill
Anything at all

Now that it's rot, I'm too down in deep
I've killed the sparrow who promised not to speak
Now the only thing I witness is the cold calling me
And my eyes are ablaze

Ashes poured out, in my withering skull
Mixed in with rain, laid like cement
I failed to interpret, fail to perceive
Fail to invent, fail to appease

Handed a raincheck and clean bill of health
Scurried like ants after we felt ashamed and
Everybody gossips, fingers on the window
Watching those who leave

Friends say they like me, like mothers have to love
As a newborn I breathe, through her filterless lungs
And I'm no longer alone, why was I alone
Through the worst of it all

Fell short of safe while my feet touched bare
The frozen winter tar and city never slept
Neither did I, hard for my mind
To shut away the noise

Now that it's rot, I'm too down in deep
I've killed the sparrow who promised not to speak
Now the only thing I witness is the cold calling me
And my eyes are ablaze

Ashes poured out, in my withering skull
Mixed in with rain, laid like cement
I failed to interpret, fail to perceive
Fail to invent, fail to appease

Out in the dark, crawling through rust
With the hours in the years, covered in lust
As it waves away, the ocean in a still
The pallbearer weeps, and the angel reaps

Sore lips embark, weightless the words
Everybody claims a risk to my reply
I speak no name, but somebody answers
Hateful the thought, born as a cancer

Out in the dark, crawling through rust
With the hours in the years, covered in lust
As it waves away, the ocean in a still
The pallbearer weeps, and the angel reaps

Sore lips embark, weightless the words
Everybody claims a risk to my reply
I speak no name, but somebody answers
Hateful the thought, born as a cancer

And it all shines through